Hey all, it’s me, and I can't stop smiling. I mean all day, crazy, cheesy smiles. Ear-to-ear, cheek hurting grins. And I’m excited! Excited to have the shop going. Excited for all the wonderful and amazing people that have started to support and show the love like a warm, cozy, fuzzy, cashmere blanket. But the truth is, I haven’t smiled in a very long time. Not the real, sincere, life-loving smile. Eh eh. I’ve been in a frantic, panic, manic “WTF have I done mode”. Feeling the self-inflicted pain of turning my world upsdide down. Going from a simple, comfortable, safe, EMPLOYED, routine-filled world to holy shit, this is @#@#% chaos and I have no idea what the heck I’m doing.
I have not cried more, slept less, felt more alone, afraid or thrown more pity parties with me as the VIP guest, and that’s saying a lot for someone like me, who is always laughing and whose self-imposed job has typically been to nurture, comfort and make others feel better. But now that I’ve crawled my way out of the black hole of starting a small business and building a website and online shop, I can finally see the sun, well, Oregon ‘sun’. I realize it was all part of the process. The scary and unknown, but also exactly where I needed to be in order to grow, learn and appreciate the necessity of breaking down, and I mean BREAK DOWN! I’m slowly learning to let my guard down and allowing myself to be vulnerable. To accept that I don’t have to do everything by myself. That it’s o.k. to ask for help, and next time I definitely will.
I’m on the other side of things, with lots more to go but my main focus will be getting all that pretty stuff in the shop and there’s lots of it. I would also like to learn to take better pictures and find a better shipping option to get you the goods faster and cheaper. I’m not happy with the current ‘by weight’ shipping calculation that I have to use but I’m working on changing that and then I’ll be able to offer global shipping to my overseas friends.
So many things to do but it’s all good and this is just the beginning, my chapter 1, and I’m so thankful you’re here.